Wednesday, 28 October 2009

  • Love by Numbers

    Have been reading this book "Love by Numbers"
    Its not really a book that teaches you stuffs. Instead, the author uses statistics to explain some of the more mundane events that are associated with love. Shall try to point out some of the more interesting points that had happened to me in some point of life or another..

    Chat up lines:

    A chat up line works if it shows you off to some advantage, by making you look interesting, humorous, athletic or rich. Questions seem to work better than statements, as it engages the person more rather than a 1-sided conversation. Surprisingly, the winning chat-up line is "What is your favourite pizza topping?". They engage the person without delving too deep into the person's inner self. The worst chat up lines are "I have a PhD in computing" and "My best friend is a helicopter pilot" (LOL!!! Damn...)

    There's this chat up line inside the book that is quite interesting "If I said you had a beautiful body, would you hold it against me?" This double meaning phrase serves as a indication to test the target's innocence level, intelligence, wittiness, and the way they think of sex. Haa!

    Mate poaching

    The art of stealing a friend's partner. It is certainly rude, underhand, emotionally fraught and morally dodgy activity. The methods that poachers use are simple but effective. Slowly invading the target's social network - means sliding up to her friends.

    As Germs put it, there is a similar term in Chinese "爱屋及屋", which is a better sounding term. Haa!

    Pluralistic Ignorance

    The meaning of Pluralistic Ignorance can be simply described as how people see someone behaving like them, but infer they are doing so for different reasons.

    This particular definition immediately set me laughing. Seems to see quite a lot of people doing that, including myself.
    Example:
    Stop doing that.
    But you do that too!
    I'm different.

    That's just a general case of what pluralistic ignorance are. =)

    Holiday Romance

    Holiday romances are not known for their longevity, because normal rules of engagement are suspended. On holiday, you will see each other everyday, instead of a few days in a week. That is probably unrealistic in real life.
    Point about holiday is to spend time with friends, don't dilute your judgment with too much alcohol and don't intensify the relationship.

    Self explanatory. =)

    Ex or Hex

    2 lines, "All's fair in love and war" and "Thou shalt not date your friend's ex". There's quite a few ugly terms, such as recycling and sloppy seconds. This is not as serious as poaching your friend's partner, but comes close to it. Dating your friend's ex is not going to delight them. Your friend might wonder if you have always lusted after their partner while they are still together, leading to down-hill conversations.

    I like the 2nd phrase. =)

    Keeping a relationship secret

    The rationale that a couple will be less embarrassed if the whole deal does not work out if no one knew about it in the first place is somewhat misguided. You might think sharing a secret brings people closer. The quality of secret relationships falls quickly because after the initial excitement it's too much like hard work. Most poeple in secret relationships get fed up of lying to friends about why they are not around some weekends and of reassuring their family that being single is great. There's also the problem of secrecy being a barrier to couples getting close; you can't get support from others about how you feel, you can't have PDA.

    I have always thought keeping a relationship secret is the 1st step to a courting ritual. Sharing a secret DEFINITELY brings one another closer. I have to disagree with the book on this point, at least in Singapore's context.

    Poles Apart
    "Love is blind", suggest you can fall for anyone, should you get the chance to meet them. But psychologists argue it's temporary. You can usually see again after 3 months or so. Usually couples seem to hook up on the basis of quite skin-deep similarities and see if it works out afterwards.

    Have read about this particular topic on some other sites, saying that wouldn't it be boring if you were doing things with someone like you all the time. Liking the same book, eating the same thing, with the same views and thoughts. It does sounds kind of boring, embrace diversity, it is a good experience to exchange views and thoughts, growing together. =)

    Cosmo memories forever............................................................

Saturday, 24 October 2009

  • Interesting day

    Today started out slow and bad.
    Waited in the clinic for the goddamn doctor for a good 2 hrs, and for a few pieces of information that I already have. Shall not visit them in future, kinda useless.

    Was supposed to meet Linda for lunch at 1230, due to the wait, Linda's stomach have to accompany me in the waiting. As she was calling me, I was actually on my way to the bus stop. She asked me how time already, and where am I. I told her I was at Bukit Panjang, heading down town le. While saying that, I U-turned and headed for the taxistand. Was quite funny from a 3rd party viewpoint. Haa!

    Had a chat with her over Tony Romas, the servings are incredibly hugeeeee. We sit there and chat idly for a good 90min, till she was like... "Eh, I think I gotta rush back already..." Haa! Some of the sacrifices for the working personnels.

    Headed to Lido to get the movie tix for Col, as well as to get 1 for myself. Caught the (500) days of Summer. Quite an interesting show. There's a few quotes inside the movie that I quite like.

    "Why do we have to label what we are now."
    "Aren't you happy now, ain't that enough?"

    Why do you need to label yourself as a bf/gf/couple? Isn't being happy together enough?
    Inside the show, Summer was saying she doesn't want to get attached, she just want to be friends. In the end, she wind up married to a guy that she met for a few mths due to fate. A random guy just came up to her and ask her about a book, and viola~ They are married in the end. Hmmm... The ending was quite funny though, "Hi, I am Autumn". Leaves the main actor wondering whats in for him for the next 500 days.

    Hang around Lido while waiting for Col to arrive. She fell asleep on the bus and din pick up my phone! Walked till I am almost tempted to go get a book in border to sit down on some cafes to read.. Arghz.

    Had dinner with her, then LL came. I was the one that pointed out LL has arrived. Col was a little surprised that I could recognize her. I'm a little surprised myself. Haa! She was actually quite late for the movie. The introductions sort of goes like this (as far as I remembered, I was concentrating on someone else..)
    LL: Hi, LL here.
    Me: Hi, Kenny here. I think you're in a rush.
    LL: Yeah.
    Me: I'll make a move, See ya!
    LL: Bye.

    Nice little short conversation (If you call that a conversation..).
    Anyway, 1st impression, she's quite cute.

    Went on to meet NM for steamboat dinner. The weather is blardy hot, and the steamboat isn't making temperature any colder... Sighz... The food sucks, the environment sucks, the services sucks, the companions are quite funny though. Went on to Bugis Arcade to hang around for a while. Felt damn old! =(

    Tried calling Col if they were going for a drink. They were. My phone's battery started blinking, and I was hoping they could give me the place before it went flat. Luckily for me, Col did. Just as I finish the phone, my LG Renoir give off a happy little chirp saying that its going to take the rest of the night off.

    Met them at Acid Bar. Though the songs were nice, its actually better than Walas', I decided to perma ban that place. Reason being, it has a huge crowd of blackies. =( LL corrected me that the term blackies shouldn't be used like that, the actual meaning actually refers to the negros. Of course I know that, this is used in Singapore's context though.

    Halfway through the conversation, I realized that LL is a much much better speaker than I was. She can engage people very well, even though they are complete stranger like me. She asked me this stunning question,"Why would you want to come over and meet us when you don't know me at all." Being still in shock, I mumbled some reply saying that its Friday night, and that I'm open to making friends. She continued by saying that girls don't really like to meet people in this way. Haa! Don't you just luv the way the conversation is heading!

    I guess my score for the night is..:
    Physical outlook: 1/10
    Personality: 1/10
    Charisma: 1/10

    Though the score I gave her was:
    Physical outlook: 8/10
    Personality: 9/10
    Charisma: 8/10

    Looking at the score sheet, its kinda hard to find another day to meet her again. But hey! It was a good day nonetheless. =)

    Cosmo memories forever....................................................

Friday, 23 October 2009

  • Drunk!

    Was feeling the reel from the impact that it is actually 21st Oct yesterday. The year before, was working, hence, at most got 6 hrs or so of thinking. This year, I got like 24 hrs of time on my hand.

    Felt damn emo, a person with his hands full of time and nothing to accomplish would only result in 胡思乱想...
    Decided to try jio-ing people for a drink.. Tried Cat, Ter, Teck, Col, Rw. In the end, only Col can make it... Haiz... Hate weekdays, where everyone is too tired to go anywhere else after work..

    Drank 1/3 of the Chivas at home, was feeling quite pathetic, and frankly speaking, quite sorry for myself as well...

    Was planning to head to Sushi Tei for dinner, unfortunately, some richass booked the whole place for a private function. We had to adjourned to another Japanese place, called Raku Japanese Restaurant. They serves decent food, but a tad too ex. I tried the Urchin Nigiri Sushi. It looks cooked, but is actually semi raw.. Din quite like the taste or texture of it. The salmon was nice though, and that's all that is needed.

    Headed on to Wala after that, the band sucks big time. Its only a 2 person band, till after an hour later, the drummer arrives. The songs weren't that great either.

    I don't think I drank all that much, was only...4 glasses of beer. I think subconsciously, I want myself to get drunk.. Don't really feel like going through the rest of the day sober. After a while, I discovered that I couldn't really stand still. Was quite happy about that, at least the alcohol are doing their job.

    Promised Col that I would sent her home, sadly, I was in no condition to send her home, in fact, I was in no condition to do anything else besides lying down on some staircase.. Asked Hb to sent Col home instead, he was nice enough to offer to send me back as well, of course, I am not really keen to be home so early... I hung around the place trying to clear my mind of all those jumble of thoughts..

    I think I even messaged Rw saying something like "All the best in ya life!" At that point, he must have deduce that I am quite drunk. I vaguely remembering he sending me some reply which was lost under my then disposition..

    I struggled up after a while, deciding to go back to Wala for more drinks. Unfortunately, I was disoriented, till I am not sure which direction is Wala. I think I must have been walking around in circles, as I took roughly an hour to make my way to some main roads. Throughout that walk out, my phone kept ringing. I picked up the calls, some of them anyway. I think I mumbled quite a bit on the phone, and I remember sitting beside a drain near a bustop. More than a pair of eyes were on me, this human meatball that wobbles down the street.

    At a point in time, I was trying to make my way back home, from the main road. I forgot that I was supposed to hire a cab home, and I continue walking, walking, walking till I see I am surrounded by buildings with no roads. I saw a lady walking her dog at this unholy hour, and asked for directions leading to....Wala (I have no idea why I am going back..). After one of the phonecalls, I think Col told me to take a cab home instead of walking around. At that time, I just follow whatever things people says, and just hop on to a cab, telling him my address, and promptly KO.

    The next moment, I was woken up by the uncle, saying that I reached. Hop down the cab and manage to make my way home w/o falling down. I went on to shower and slept. For some obscure reasons that deluded me, I woke up at 3am, feeling damn blardy awake! I tried to close my eyes and sleep, but my mind is still super clear. In the end, I woke up, turn on my laptop till 7am.

    My bioclock totally malfunction yesterday. Overall, a day for a big serving of self-reprimanding, reflections & wallowing in self pity. Delightful.

    Cosmo memories forever...................................................


Wednesday, 21 October 2009

  • Timeless regret

    In a blink of an eye, a year has passed. Its that time of the year again, the day which I will definitely think back of the past. Of the times where I did the one thing that is totally unforgivable.

    Its been what... 8 years? The feeling of guilt is still as strong as when that incident happened... I tried hard, very hard to tell myself to let go of those things in the past, unfortunately, the merciless scar in my heart won't relent. The past images keep floating and assault my mind, relieving those scenes again and again. Felt like I'm trapped in a timelock, an endless repetitions of the fateful day. The momentary happiness, the despair faced, and eternal regret that comes along with it..

    Few months back, I think Ter came over, he asked me, why is that 'P' still stuck on my cupboard?? I just shrug it off, mumbling some incoherent words. Deep down, that 'P' serves as a painful reminder. Never ever to commit that same mistake again. I vowed never to do something so despicable ever again, death would be prefered over that. It strikes at the very core of my way of life. That 'P' would remain, as long as I draw breath. It shall be my eternal companion, even till the pit of death itself.

    Recently, been receving comments, compliments actually, on my diving companions, noteably Col. Jd says she's pretty, Kris says she's pretty. Hmm, just wondering if Kris/Cm would be compatible for her.. Jd is definitely out, being attached + frivolous. Haa! Tried to expand Kris' social circle by introducing Jo to him, might be due the fact that Col's standing next to her, he only wanna know Col. @#*(&%*(#@&%(*#@% Darn picky! =(

    Covered 5km this morning, 8km at night, trying hard to train for my marathon. I feel there should not be any problem completing it within the 8hr timeframe. Averagely 5.3km/hr would do the trick. Been reading up on some marathon prep methods. Most suggest doing around 65km/wk. Shall try to do just that. The running would definitely clear my mind of all the worldly matters.

    Still have 6 shaw vouchers, expiring end of the month. Problem is that there is no one to accompany me to watch movies. Sighz.... Guess I have to just burn all of them.

    I think I forgotten about the outing with HL, was supposed to go out with her a fortnight ago, it just totally slips my mind. One would think that a bummer like me would have enough time to remember all these. Its just that I'm getting old. My short term memory loss symptoms seems to be getting more and more severe..

    Feeling damn melancholy~~~~~ Any stars free to cheer me up a bit? =(

    Cosmo memories forever.......................................

Monday, 19 October 2009

  • Back!~~

    Ever since I quit, I have been living a carefree life. My daily routine is sort of like the following:

    Woke up by the blinding sun, together with the heat...
    Decide to go back to sleep, or to wake up.
    Choosing between running, swimming, gaming, reading, cooking or just watching tv.
    Watch tv at 8pm till 10pm. Play a bit of game or read, sleep.

    This is definitely a good life to lead. Free and easy, nothing to worry about, that is till my savings runs dry...

    Its been a month plus, and I seems to store enough of the break for my next run in my future job. Time to wake up and get serious for building my career! I am going to aim for health care sector! Hopefully my interview would be able to get me a job there.

    During my break, I went to a few places for holiday. Firstly is the Dayang's diving trip.

    Was freaking excited about the diving trip, as I like sea sports a lot! Partnered with Ym, was quite surprised that Ter is joining us for the trip, was not informed till the day itself, then he just suddenly pop up. Met Col's colleagues Joanna & Pp. Quite a funny bunch of ladies, especially Joanna. She's like a natural joker. Never fails to bring up the atmosphere. Haa!

    Was cramped into this small quad-sharing room together with Ym, Zach & Felicia. Did not really talk alot in the room as there's no one like Joanna around.. So the room is essentially just a place for us to sleep.
    The 1st dive was quite terrible, as we had to fiddle with the unfamiliar equipments. I had trouble kneeling in water, as shown in the pool training, and it got worse in the sea. Was practically floating up and down without touching the seabed.. and when I force myself to go down, i got stabbed by the stupid looking corals.... As a result, my knee got disfigured almost immediately.. =(

    During the subsequent dives, saw more interesting stuffs, like the soft corals with nemos swimming in it, and a poor sea turtle that got chased around by 20 over divers! Haa, almost felt sorry for the turtle. Saw a stingray hiding under those hugeass corals too! Other that that, is just schools of fishes swimming around.

    Another highlight of the dives is during the last dive, when Ter, Ym and me are buddies. Ter went and di siao a pair of titan trigger fish that result in the fish attacking him. When the fish chased him suddenly, I was just at most 3m away from him. I instanly laughed out loud. Now, it is not an easy thing to know your laughter underwater, and is definitely not easy to laugh out loud too. A lot of bubbles came from my side during that time. LoL, thinking back, maybe I should go and reinforce him to fin the fish off, but it was just too funny for me to do anything!

    Overall, the diving trip is a good experience for me.

    Next up was my trip to HK with my family. I like HK. First thing first, it's quite similar to Singapore, and that puts a person back into the comfort zone. Secondly, the girls there are the type of girls that will attract me. Quiet, reserved, demure looking girls. With the thick black rimmed specs on, I am totally pawned by their outlook... Only thing lacking is that they speak mostly in cantonese... The barrier between them and me is instally up, and quite a strong barrier at that.. =(

    Visited a temple in one of the MTR stations, and another one at the top of the hill. Now that trip was one scary trip. We decided to take the cable car up to the temple as the bus ride would take approximately an hour, while the cable car would only take 25-30min. Logically speaking, most unsuspecting people would take the cable car. The trip up was okay, nice view, with a small family as companion. The trip down is one hella experience. As we begin the journey down, the winds started getting stronger. Just as we were halfway down, the shaking of our cable car begins to get scary. The shaking got so terrible that at one point, the cable car stopped moving. Yup, it just left us hanging in midair, exposing us to the merciless winds that pound on our fragile looking cable car. It shook left and right for a good 20s before it decided to move again. During that interval, there was silence. No one dare to speak, it seems like everyone was holding their breath. I guess we were all praying for the maintenence to be effective... Once we read ground, everyone left out a sigh of relief. I don't think I would ever wanna take the cable car up there again..

    Other than that, went shopping at 女人街, then another place of interests is the 蜡像馆. Nothing much that really captures my interests. The Peak is another thing though. The scenary there is breathtaking! Overlooking most of HK. Its definitely a place for me to bring my other half. =)

    Next up is the trip to Macau, Venetian. The place is an imiatation of Venice, but its enough for me to feel overwhelmed. There are even gondalas there, for a hefty price of course.. The street lamps, together with the architecture and the painted celling, will instantly ingite the romance mood. It would be a good experience to just take slow walks beside the winding river, just enjoying each other's company in the Venice-like environment with air conditioning. Haa!

    To summarize, HK is another place that I would definitely like to visit again.

    Last and final trip till I get another job, Tioman Dive!

    The Tioman dive trip is even better than the Dayang's dive trip.

    To begin with, the journey there was better, we took a coach there, with proper cushioned seatings. The 3 hr boat ride was terrible though. There wasn't any air conditioning inside, and the sea was rough. Halfway through, Felicia wanted a smoke, and she wanted to go up to take in some fresh air, but Kiat advise us not to, as the sea's quite rough. We decide to go to the upperdeck instead of the ship's bow. Just as I was leaning back and admiring the most beautiful night sky I have ever seen in my life, I saw a streak of light in the vast cosmos! What was going through my mind was this: "Hmm, is that a shooting star, yeah, I think so, Yes, that was definitely a shooting star.... SHOOTING STAR!!!!!!" I jerk up and turn back to look at it again, of course, I am not so lucky to be able to see 2 shooting star in a row, but that alone was enough to make the whole boat ride worthwhile!
    I shared one of my dreams with Col & Felicia, to open a cafe in the middle of a desert with beautiful night skies like this. Haa! Its just a dream, not really meant to be feasible. Felt good to be under such amazing nightskies.

    The sleeping arrangment was supposed to be Col, Pp, Jason & Me. It ended up being all the 3 guys bunking together. Not that I have anything against it, but w/o anyone to entertain me at night, I dread that it would be like last time.. and of course, it DID turn out like last time. The room is just a place for sleeping. Period.

    During the night bbq, we saw some firecrackers being fired off, which in turn fired off our curiousity. We checked with Kiat and he brought us to uncle that sells those. We fired off a series of it, with me closing the whole event with a finale burst of fine-flower-type firecracker! Was totally awesome! Felt soo magical too. Haa. Saving the best for the last.

    Some of the highlights of the trips are, sea turtles, stingrays, and a miniature coconut tree lookalike under water, beds and beds sea urchinssssssssssss, experiencing low-on-air signs and going through underwater tunnels!!! Shiok! Some of the sites have low visibility, coupled with my mask-that-keeps-fogging. I was essentially a blind man in water. Only way to resolve that is to keep clearing my mask with the water. I had to do it so often that I decide to keep some water inside my mask, so that it acts like a wiper. I have to shake my head every few seconds that it would seems like I am high on drugs. Cecelia thought I had problems clearing water out of my masks till I explained to her my rationale of keeping water inside the masks. It happened every dive, that Col gave me the (-____-''') look everytime she saw me shaking my head underwater. It became kind of hilarious.

    That pretty much sums up everything that happened throughout the past few months. =)

    Cosmo memories forever.............................................................

Tuesday, 28 July 2009

  • Life still goes on...

    Its been 4 months since.. Whatever it is, life still goes on..

    Some updates for the past few weeks..

    RWM has started once again, the twins are utterly adorable!! Am gonna steal them away from Kris.. In comparison, the duo kids of mine appears not cute.. =(
    Went to the Volunteers Connection held in Excelsior Hotel, organized by SCS, a day for volunteers to relax and enjoy. Am quite surprised that most of the volunteers does not look good. On television, it always shows the kind, caring person as a beauty hidden away from the world, but in reality, it's not so.. >.<"
    Was totally bored at the event that Kris, Cat and me went to the coffee place (forgot what is it) to wake ourselves up. Cm being the lamer and wierdo, skipped the event....
    After the event, dined at subway with Germs and Cat at Anchor point. Went on to ikea to get my ball lamp! =)


    Went hiking a couple times more..
    Recap:
    1st trip: Pauleen, Pauleen's fren, Desmond, Jennifer, MY, ZB, Kabir, me
    2nd trip: Pauleen, Ben, Teddy, me
    3rd trip: Pauleen, James, Jen, me
    4th trip: TBA

    Now more about Jen, she and KH are on the top of my entertainment list now. LoL

    1st outing: St James (Pauleen, James, KH, me)
    We went to St James cause Pauleen says she got someone to introduce to KH, I was sort of invited to tag along.. It was the 1st time for all of us, as we are not the chiongster type, we kind of figured our own way into one of the place, a Jazz place, which is kind of boring. We waited for Jen for almost an hour plus. I was still feeling quite alright, I mean, girls are ALWAYS late. No big deal being late for an hour plus, moreover, it might really be that she's late due to work. When she finally arrived at around 1030, was quite stunned. She's actually quite decent looking. Sweet kind of face, soft spoken, looking a bit shy, yet still able to talk to us. We hang around for a while in that Jazz place, when she went to the dancefloor, I saw that she has a tatoo on her back.. Was instantly -____-"""
    As it's really boring at that place, we went on to Dragonfly, where Jen wanted to go meet her friends. Next stop being Powerstation. Each time we change place, the energy level got higher. Haa! Ended quite late at around 1+, we went on to sup porridge at some place nearby. It might be the alcohol or something, but she started teasing all the people around her, including me. =( After supper, she went on to meet her another group of friends till 6am…

    2nd outing: Suntec KTV (Pauleen, KH, Jen, Grace, Derek, Me)
    Went for a KTV session after Monday work. Wierd day to go for a ktv.. As usual, Jen arrived late, though Pauleen arrived even later! I sort of created an opportunity for her to sit next to KH, while I went on to sit next to Grace. Was impressed by Grace's singing of English songs. She's petite, yet can deliver quit a punch in her singing. Was especially mesmerized by a song by Celin Dion "A New Day Has Come". Since the ktv, the song has repeated roughly a few hundred times. =D Of course, once this news spread out, they thought I took an interest in Grace.. Pauleen even told me to get ready for a rough time, as she and her martial-arts-instructor bf has a stable relationship of many years.. I was like..."Please! You all think too much!!! >.<''' "
    Was trying to get a shot of KH and Jen together, but no such opportunity presents itself, for some reason, after Grace left early (her bf fetching her..) she came over and sat beside me while Pauleen moves over to KH's side... Took a video of her singing F.I.R. 月牙弯. Her singing's so-so.. Not as impacting as Grace's. =)

    3rd outing: Tracking (Pauleen, James, Jen, Me)
    The most recent of events. Was supposed to go tracking with a few other people. All but 4 of us were left, due to various reasons like rituals, sick, arriving too early (Yes! Desmond arrived too early and din bring his phone, so we missed him!). This was quite memorable, as I made another lady wait for an hour for me. Muahahahaa!! The next lady to do this after Ys. LoL..
    She stayed in the east, and thought that the meeting time was 0830, so she got up at 0645, on a Sunday, and travelled all the way to Bishan MRT to wait. LOL! Can't stop laughing... Anyway, I felt kinda guilty after that, so I got her breakfast (which is only a cup of orange juice…) at Mac. James came over and fetched us to Macritchie for the tracking. At first, I thought, she being hold up in office all day long, should not be too sporty. After chatting with her throughout the hike, I discovered that she's actually rather sporty. She's also quite into sea-sports! Cable-ski, sun-tanning, kayak-ing etc..Chatted quite a bit on that, till James commented that we had found a common topic.. I stopped talking about sea-sports from that moment.. Better to curb all these rumors-to-be before they grow.. I sort of asked her what is the longest time she ever waited for someone, she replied "Yeah, this lor.." Was instantly struck down by guilt..and laughter! Haa! Imagine, she having quite a few suitors waiting for her all the time, having to endure the longest wait she ever got for a stranger! Wootz! Ego boost~ =P
    The hiking progress was quite slow, as there's only so few of us, and we were kinda strolling instead of hiking. Took almost 4 hrs to reach Beauty World hawker. Bought her lunch as well, till she told me she's really not angry. Even then, I'll still feel guilty de mah.. End of the event, actually found her to be quite cute, not the chiongster type that I imagined her to be. She can do those stupid things like self-praising, jumping like a rabbit, running a few steps every once in a while and making fun of me… -___-"

    Went out with Survivors to this place called Paulaner. Its at Millennium Walk. Of course I got lost along the way.. That is to be expected, but what I did not expect was that Ys knew I was lost.. She confronted me:"You got lost again right?" I was like...shit........ Was just chatting till they suddenly asked me, am I still sad over her.. I gave them an incredulous look while saying "NO!".... Of course I have not gotten over her yet.. I wish I could get over her... Sighz...

    Saw 1st hand how some guys chatted up girls they completely don't know, as in the case for Apple. Haa! She met her Uni friend, and the 1st thing he asked was "So are you attached or single?" Nice lar! Bravo!!! Short and sweet, not to mention being overly blunt and tactless. Haa! Hilarious.. Then his friend came over and started chatting with Apple, with her ignoring him all the way. Rofl. When she came back and told us what happened, she said the guy even asked her, am I her bf. Now here, the point is not that I was assumed to be her bf, is her expression when saying out that line, she dramatize with her hands out wide and saying "Wah Lao Eh~" I know I'm not that high in any lady's eyes, but don't need to emphasize on that mah... =(

    ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~End of event updates.~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

    Am going to join Standard Chartered Full Marathon! Haa! Was thinking of jio-ing NM-ers, but they don't seem to be too keen on it. Only person I managed to persuade was Ter.. She upgraded her 10km to 42km.. Haa! This is sort of like a challenge to myself, to conquer 42km.. I only heard from Cm saying the despair he felt while doing 42km, like never ending trip.. If there wasn't a time limit, I'm pretty sure I would be able to complete it, but if there is a time limit of say..8hrs... Which means that I would have to do 5.25km/hr.. That is not going to be easy... and I have to repeat it for 8x... Was thinking of not training and just go for the run straight, after considering this, maybe I need some form of training regime fixed up.

    Cosmo memories forever..........................................................

     

Thursday, 09 July 2009

  • Dreams

    Had a most weird dream last night...

    Dreamt that I was assigned to Korea for work. The next scene was that I was working as usual, was due to board a plane straight after work. It so happened that I forgotten all about the overseas assignement. I had to go to the airport with only a empty briefcase. I had no extra clothes, no Korean currency, nothing at all with me. When I reached there, the person who guided me was gone. Was left all alone on a foreign country. I tried to remember all the Hangul that I have learnt, which wasn't a lot... I remember part of the dream was that I had to live in a suburban area instead of the city...

    When I woke up, it was already 0630 hours...

    This particular dream has actually inspired me to follow up on my languages course. To do what I want to do in life...

    Speaking of that, saw Qin's photo on facebook. She's been to soooo many countries, so many places of interests. Most of them are my dream place to visit... And she's the same age as me. -____-'''

    What have I been doing all my life? When others are already so far ahead.. Teck's doing well in his career, Guo even more so, since he's due to fly over to Europe soon.. Ter's been working for quite a while already, got his car, investment, housing etc.. So, what have I been doing all these while... What do I want in life? Do I want to teach? Do I want to be an ambassador? Do I want to learn 6 different language and travel the world? Or do I want to go into trading? Am not even sure if opening a cafe in the middle of the desert is what I want... Till now, I'm still as lost as I was 1 year ago... Arghzz...

    Maybe I'll just give up everything I have and go be a farmer or something..... >.<'''

    Cosmo memories forever.............................................

     

Monday, 22 June 2009

  • Redang!~

    Had a fantastic weekend over at Redang! That place shall be the 1st place where I would bring my other half! Really like the place there, so romantic, feel so relaxed and it seems that all the worries just vanished.

    18th June, 2009 (Thursday)

    Went over to Lot 1 after work to get Listerine and a couple sets of OP beach wears, before heading over to the salon to do my hair. Didn't know that there was a 5+1 package there. -____-" Anyway, signed up for it and slept for nearly and hour. Went home, showered, pack stuffs and headed out to meet the rest of the peeps. The scenario was exactly the same as last trip with Cm and Kris, except that there are 10 person instead of 3. Haa! The increase in the number of people really make the journey a lot more lively! The bus journey wasn't so bad, slept quite soundly without much interuption.

    19th June, 2009 (Friday)

    Reached the jetty quite late as the bus seems to be travelling quite slow.. Anyway, we missed the 1st boat to Redang Island, hence, we headed for the usual Nasi Lemak at the Jetty. The tourists there are pretty rude. Most of them are M'sians.. They will just cut your queue like it's the only natural thing to do. Totally pissed off. So I went to the front and attempted to block out all those queue cutters, unfortunately, they still managed to squeeze to the other side to resume their barbaric behavior. I gave up and rejoin the queue with the rest of Knights. Then this lady came over (one of the queue cutters) and said in English "Xcuse me". LoL. I'll admit she's qutie good looking, so I just stare at her (mixture of anger and beo-ing). Of course, she totally ignored my prescence.. =(

    We reached the island nearing 12pm. Hang around and went for lunch before checking into the resort. Intially I thought we were having pool view, when we went to our assigned room 734, it was facing the forest. Was quite disappointed, so I suggested to Kris and co, if they will mind changing to a pool view/sea view room. Just top up a bit more only for that wonderful sensation of having a great view in the room! After a while, the reception called and realized that we took the wrong room. After the change, we were quite pleased with it, and hence decided not to change anymore. But Kp and Hf room is made up of 4 single beds. They are quite pissed off with the service, so am I. Such a big resort, and they have the audacity to tell me they do not have an extra queensize bed to change. Totally cmi!

    After all these hassles, we went for our 1st snorkelling trip! To the deep sea. Revisited the corals. Totally enjoyed the feeling of swimming through these beautiful creatures.. Came back and went for dinner. Went ice-cream at the Rainforest Cafe, since the original ice cream place has closed down. Went upstairs to slack and place darts before heading back to the room. Played some card games, some DS, and thats it, before we know it, its nearing 1am. Rested till around morning 0715.

    20th June, 2009 (Saturday)

    Woke up and went for a short breakfast, realized that the food quality has dropped quite a lot since the last trip.. Got ready for the Marine Park trip! The highlite of the whole Redang. The fishes are still as plentiful, and the corals are still as mesmerizing. Though the fishes seems to have grown up quite a bit. There is even a fish that is at least 40cm long with sharp teeth! Nonetheless, totally enjoyed the experience, only thing lacking is didn't take too much photos. Was enjoying myself more than photo-takings, which is not a bad thing. Haa!

    After some 'persuading' by Kris, Cm and *ahem* me, they decided to skip the afternoon snorkelling trip. Instead, we went to the beach and slack before embarking on the banana boat. It's 25RM for a 15min ride. Was quite fun though. Haa! Saw 1 of the staffs eating mouthful after mouthful of tofu from a PRC. Was quite disgusted, he didn't even attempt to hide it. -___-"

    Went of dinner after that, kept seeing the lady who cut my queue in the 1st day. She seems to be the main attraction of my trip (Among the people..). The BBQ dinner wasn't as great as well. Quite dissappointed with the food level here.. Went to the beach party and ate the ice-kachang. Dom got to be in the limelight as he took over singing of 童话 from some guy who totally destroyed the song.. Went back to the room and visited Kris as he had some hearing problems after falling out of the banana boat. Rested early to prepare for tomorrow's journey back.

    21st June, 2009 (Sunday)

    Went for early breakfast with all our luggages. Saw her again, this time, I let her catch me looking at her, twice. LoL, too bad, can't pick up my courage to approach her. =( Took the boat back to the jetty before embarking on our ardous journey back to Sg. Sleep throughout most of the journey as well. Reached Sg at around 2300 hrs. There was quite a jam on the checkpoint.

    Felt happy and sad at the same time. Happy cause the trip was really great, sad cause I'm coming back to reality.. Deadlines and pressures will resume.. Think I will visit Redang again, and again, and again. It's an affordable place with a really romantic atmosphere and be done easily with a day's leave. Perfect for that short weekend getaway!

    1st Redang Trip: Cat, Clement, James, Me
    2nd Redang Trip: Cm, Kris, Me
    3rd Redang Trip: Jd, Wendy, Kp, Hf, Dom, Sy, Wz, Cm, Kris, Me
    4th Redang Trip: TBA

    Btw, I din complete a single set of 夏日默默茶! LoLz..

    Cosmo memories forever........................................................

     

Wednesday, 29 April 2009

  • Filling up the gaps in life

    I have been keeping myself very busy for the past few weeks. My life has suddenly become very packed.

     

    Monday – Work, Home, Rest

    Tuesday – Work, Gym, Home, Rest

    Wednesday – Work Home, Rest

    Thursday – Work Gym, Home, Rest

    Friday – Work, Go out, Home, Rest

    Saturday – RWM, Go out, Home, Rest

    Sunday – Gym, Rest, Rest, Rest

     

    17th April, Friday

    Had a met up with Survivors for dinner on Friday. I thought we were meeting at Orchard for dinner, guess I’m really getting older. Totally forgot that they have changed the venue to Bugis’s Fish & Co. So right after accompanying Pauleen to get her board games, I rushed straight back to Bugis. Was late for half an hour only… Chatted a while, nothing too exciting. Went back home early.. Before midnight..

     

    18th April, Saturday

    Celebrated Shuyan’s birthday at Café Cartel @ PS. Quite a bunch of people went. The service there is terrible though, we did a feedback to the manager of the place. At least she knows how to run the business. After dinner, we went over to Cm’s Killiny for a drink. His cousin is quite cute! Went home quite early too, before midnight..

     

    19th April, Sunday

    Went hiking from Macritchie to BT. Was a leisure walk till when we reached the base of BT. From then on, its an arduous climb to the highest point in Singapore. Left with no water and feeling very drained, the only thing that stopped me from giving up was the cheering from Pauleen, Desmond and Jennifer. Lunch was at the top of Beauty World Hawker. Memories of the past came rushing back. This was where we used to hang out half a decade ago. Most memorable was during Ter’s trip to France. Where we LAN for free. Haa! What memories…

     

    Germaine jio-ed KTV after my hike. As I was feeling totally exhausted, I declined. Allowing them the quality time to tian-mi-mi. LoL

     

    24th April, Friday

    Went KTV-ing with Pauleen, KH, WX, XL, Kelvin, YM and Leroy after work on Friday. Quite shiok to K with them. Can shout to my hearts content. Guess this is another channel for me to relieve some of my emotions.. KH actually sings damn blardy well! His voice can reach very high levels. I can only look down in shame.. LoL

     

    25th April, Saturday

    Last session of RWM. Guess I won’t really miss the kids too much this semester. Last semester’s kids are more adorable. Yuying and Hongliang >> Azlan. Was supposed to go for steamboat at Crystal Jade at night, but due to the place being full house, and Wz not wanting to eat Jap, I went out with Cat, Germaine, Tl and SM instead. Went KTV after dinner too. Was actually feeling very tired and sleepy. Managed to finish the whole session in 1 piece. Haa!

     

    26th April, Sunday

    Skipped Sunday’s gym as Cm is too lazy to come over. It was raining as well, hence, it’s a stay home lazy Sunday. Watched Harry Potter 1~4 as well as Pirates of the Carribean 1,2.

     

    Upcoming events:

    Long weekend ahead. Guess my activity shall start on the Thursday.

    Cm asked me to try the Gym at Jurong East on Thursday. I agreed. After a while, I realized that its holiday on Friday. I was like…”Shit…” Cm looked at me and said, “Don’t tell me just because Friday is a holiday, you can’t make it on Thursday?!” I laughed, “You’re damn good lar! Can read my mind!!!” Hilarious.

     

    30th April, Thursday – Empty

    1st May, Friday – Hiking

    2nd May, Saturday – Empty

    3rd May, Sunday – Gym + Rest

     

    2 slots up for grabs! LoL…

    Maybe will bring family out for dinner on 1 of the days ba… Its been quite a while since I brought them out for meals… Hmmm…

     

    Bought my Redang trip for 18th June to 21st June. My 3rd time there. It’s an affordable place to just get out of SG. Hope the swine flu doesn’t reach there…

     

    Am really interested in Scuba diving. Maybe will get a cert over at Redang. Then I can go for my AOWD. Can imagine myself diving into shipwrecks and stuffs.. Haa! So exciting!!

     

    Cosmo memories forever………………………………..

     

Wednesday, 15 April 2009

  • Calmed down enough to be slightly coherent in my thoughts.

    Been reading quite some books to keep myself busy.

    Raymond E. Feist - Wrath of a Mad God
    R. A. Salvatore- The Thousand Orcs
    Adrian Tan - Teenage Textbook/Workbook

    Suddenly got reminded of the stupid things I did in the past, something like..

    if only the world is empty of human emotions
    like a world without considerations
    or humans without conscious
    void of all kindness
    enter into a world of unhappiness
    lying on a bore dull land
    inside a mundane man's mind
    pinning for an impossibility
    imagine a world without dreams
    nothing like what you think
    gradually chipping off the soulless thing..

    which is really dumb, and suits me just fine.

    Time seems to fly by, without realizing it, I have stepped into the working class for half a year.
    To summarize the past 6 months, it's like a roller coaster ride.
    It begins from ground, slowly climbing up to the peak, where I can see far and wide. Right back to ground zero.
    Just hope I get through all the mode swings + the emo part... without sustaining too much injury to my already dissipating soul...

    Cosmo memories forever............................................

Tuesday, 24 March 2009

  • Thrice & Thrice...

    Thrice and Thrice shall he be marked…

    Once, for the period during NTU where she sat on his bike.
    Twice, for the period where she held his hand.
    Thrice, for the period where she got together with him.

    I should be feeling terrible, strangely enough, I am walking as normal, eating as normal, laughing and joking as normal. Even though I know that I am not being normal.

    Although I have a big heart, it isn’t as strong as it seems. These 3 scars have pushed me to the extreme end of my limit. And it’s not getting easier each time.

    Human beings are not always aware of what they are feeling. Feelings may not be put into words.

    The day begins with a nice weather, bright and windy.

    After a series of…. heart wrenching sms-es, I sat in front of my desk, stoning in silence.
    A rumble, I ignored it.
    Another rumble, it irritated me.
    Yet another rumble.
    I peek out of my room.
    There was a heavy downpour outside.
    I look at the sky, it mimics my current feelings.
    Mother Earth, knowing I can’t let tears fall, is crying out for me.

    Broken Heart Syndrome – where a traumatizing incident triggers the brain to distribute chemicals that weaken heart tissue

    Symptoms of “Broken Heart”:

    -> A perceived tightness of the chest, similar to an anxiety attack
    ->     Stomach ache and/or loss of appetite
    ->     Partial or complete insomnia
    ->     Anger
    ->     Shock
    ->     Nostalgia
    ->     Apathy
    ->     Feelings of loneliness
    ->     Feelings of hopelessness and despair
    ->     Loss of self-respect and/or self-esteem
    ->     Medical or psychological illness
    ->     Suicidal thoughts
    ->     Nausea
    ->     Fatigue
    ->     The thousand-yard stare
    ->     Constant or frequent crying
    ->     A feeling of complete emptiness
    ->     In extreme cases, death

    Am quite amazed how accurate these data are.

    My world, has once again, came crashing down all on me. After months of tedious reworking of my world, it is all in naught….

    I used to think that after the 2nd scarring few months back, I should have let it go and moved on already. Apparently, I was wrong. As what I am feeling now proved. There is nothing more for me to do right now. I need some solitude. Or do I need a soul mate to feel sad with? I do not know...

    I hate being lonely, yet I hate the feeling of hating to be lonely even more. I kind of understand why people are so vulnerable when they are heart broken. Someone being there for you at this unbearable chapter of your life is something that you would appreciate very much.

    Within the stormy seas, where you have lost all sense of directions, suddenly you see an anchor, and you grab hold of it. It prevents you from being pulled apart by the monstrous waves, the shrieking winds, the ominous sky… The anchor guides you to a harbor, a sanctuary, safe from all external factors, a place where you find peace.

    Soon, you fall in love with the harbor, and you realized that you can’t do without it. You start to see the harbor in a different light. The Planks, that forms the walkway. The Rope, that binds all the planks together. The Wooden House, beauty in simplicity….

    Miraculously, the monstrous waves emerged as gently rolling waves. The shrieking winds evolved into calm breeze bearing the melody of the ocean. The ominous sky paved the way for a brighter, clearer future...

    This might be a scenario of what the person might be feeling then. I remembered this feeling then.

    On the contrary, when once again, the sanctuary suddenly dissolved into nothingness, the after effects would be exponentially more drastic.

    The waves would metamorphose into a reenactment of the Great Flood. The shrieking winds would evolve into a perfect storm. The ominous sky would expand and expand till everything is engulfed and nothing is left.

    If feelings could be put to words, well, this is the closest to what I’m feeling..

    Death can be as light as a feather, or as heavy as a mountain. Could I be living for myself, I guess, this is goodbye world. I’m extremely sick and tired of this turbulent life that I’m leading. I dislike being pushed to the limit time and again.

    What did I do to deserve this?! Why me?

    Cosmo memories forever..................................................................................................

     

Monday, 02 March 2009

  • Numb

    The wind makes the flowers dance
    The rain moisturize the Earth
    Everything in this world depends on each other to survive
    Why do people hurt each other?
    Why are there separations?
    Even if you travel far away
    you will always remain right here in my heart
    My heart will always be filled by that gentle smile of yours
    I hang on tightly to that fragment of you
    Even I felt hurt,
    we are still connected together.
    I believe that we will meet again
    I love you, I trust you
    I want to share your loneliness
    I love you, I trust you
    Be it the light or the darkness
    We can trust each other if its only the two of us.
    No, don't let go...


Monday, 02 February 2009

  • Must stay +ve!!!


    Was feeling quite tired today, since its Monday, and I have a serious sleep debt going on. Slept throughout the bus ride, and some more...

    Felt that one must stay positive no matter the circumstances. Everything seems to be going against me right now, but I believe I will persevere. Another point I made today is that money is not really that important to me, as of now. If given a choice, I would take a lower paying job and enjoy my job than a high paying, but hateful job.

    Oh well, was scrolling through some pictures till I saw those pictures on survivors. I REALLY miss those times. Especially those times with Ys. I have finally realized how happy I was during the times with her. No stress, no mind games, no expectations.. Especially when I first got to know her, she was doing things for everyone. In my eyes, she's a very helpful girl, of course, human changes over time, but I still enjoy those times.

    Maybe after I saved enough, I would go open a F&B restaurant, most likely a japanese restaurant. Doing something which I will enjoy. Maybe, maybe, maybe..

    Photos
     

    1st picture taken with my new LG KC910 Renoir


    A shot through the windows in my room


    Reunion dinner, or whats left of the Yu Sheng


    1st course: Shark's fin with some vegetable


    2nd course: Dry abalone (Left) and fresh abalone (Right)


    3rd course: Goose liver wrapped in some beehoon and fried to crispyness


    4th course: I have no idea what is this particular course doing here


    5th course: Seafood mixtured wrapped with salted egg yolk and fried to perfection!


    6th course: Lobster noodle, not really up to my expectations


    7th course: Almond paste with bird's nest


    Lobster awaiting their entry into the kitchens


    The 4th floor which I have never been, till now


    View outside Himawari


    Another view


    Quite a variety of sake



    Experimenting with my phone's focusing


    Suki yaki on the left & Shabu shabu on the right

    If only I could turn back time..............

    Cosmo memories forever...................................................................

Tuesday, 27 January 2009

  • Happy CNY~

    A new year represents a new beginning. How can a new year start w/o a new year resolution?

    New year resolution list:

    1) Update my blog regularly
    2) Hit the gym at least twice a week
    3) Lose 1 kg every month
    4) Save at 500 bucks per month for traveling
    5) Pick up a musical instrument (Piano, guitar, drumming etc..)
    6) Read more books
    7) Expand my social circle by getting acquainted with someone every month
    8) Travel to Japan/Korea/NZ/Australia
    9) Be more mature
    10) Be happy

    Right, so I shall start off with item 1 and item 9. Will write in a style that is more mature than I used to.

    The CNY this year seems awfully short. It might be a after effect due to working life. Every off-work hours is extremely precious. 24 hours a day, 9 hours a day spent working, 2 hour for transportation, 1 hour for preparation, and I'm left with 12 hours a day for my own use. Ideally, I would like a 7-hour sleep a day. Some simple arithmetic will result in 5 hours a day for my personally use. 5 hours, it may seems like a lot, but in truth, the 5 hours of personal use hardly suffice what I plan to do. Minus off an hour a day for dazing, an hour for blogging, an hour for tv, and hour for reading, and viola~ I'm left with zero hour. Nice.

    Shall procrastinate this matter for a while. Not really in the mode for serious hard thinking and decision making.

    Shall write about this CNY main events.

    Started on Friday, where we went to KP's house for some steamboat/BBQ, as well as to celebrate Wendy's birthday in advance. A suggestion from jd to get her a boardgame, and we ended up with "Taboo" from Kiddy's Palace. Not that it was any different, but buying a birthday gift for someone who's in her 20's seems a bit, inappropriate. Oh well, since the damange has already been done, shall move on and learn. Did the usual catching up, bitching about work etc..

    Jd got a huge present for Wendy, all wrapped up in a box, not unlike those boxes used in the 7th Lunar month. It turned out to be a microwave oven. Wendy doesn't believe that the oven is the present, and tried to search for some hidden mystery gifts, all in vain. The microwave oven IS her birthday gift. All of us was banging each other laughing.

    Saturday night marks the 1st time I saw kc and the rest of Team Knightmare. Went to this guy called Cephas's house. It is big, very big. In fact, its the 2nd biggest house I ever went to. Its slightly bigger than jd's secondary house. Oh well, had a fun time there. Admiring the scenary the house offers. There is a lot of mode within the house. One can just sit down on one of the balcony and sip tea. Totally my style. Shall use the house as my motivation in life. A bonus to this trip is Cephas's sister. She is drop dead gorgeous. Since Team Knightmare is made up of guys, one can see a whole row of guys dropping their jaws, all looking at a single point. I have to forcibly use both my hands to push my head away from her. She IS that gorgeos. Dressed in a full length dress, with a simple top, she is the epitome of femininity. Oh well, quite a fruitful trip.

    On Sunday, went for our yearly reuinion dinner at Ah Yat. Was not very satisfied with a food & services. Thats not to say the food was not good, just that it was not up to my expectations. For a hefty bill of 690 bucks, I would expect more from them. Oh well, maybe the standard will improve next year, though I hope the price would stay put.

    Monday night was spent on Germaine's place. Together with Jy, Tl, Sm and Mz. Played full-house/blackjack till the wee hours. At around 430am, I decided to head home and sleep. Totally exhausted from the previous few nights. We walked Jy back before taking a cab. Dropped Tl near his house and then Mz. Since boonlay is a place full of bangalas, I asked her to drop me a sms after reaching her house. After 5min of waiting, with the cab almost reaching my place, I decided to call her. Three times I called her, three times I hear some wierd songs. After what seems like an eternity, with me thinking whether to ask the cab to turn back, I finally received her message. Totally scared the shit out of me. I have decided, next time something like this happens, I am going to send her up the lift before heading back home in peace.

    Tuesday was spent at home with my relatives coming over. Tired day it was, made worse by the fact that tomorrow work will start again.

    Am going to hit the sack, need to recover from the past few days of late night sleep.

    Cosmo memories forever............................................................

Thursday, 15 January 2009

  • Seriously, why are there people who do things like toying with people??

    Is it very fun to fix a date, then last minute give some crap reasons like "Oh, I thought we are not meeting already?" Thats just total bullshit!

    The least they can do is to come up with a better reason ya?

    People says "Once bitten, twice shy. Twice bitten, never try."
    Guess my skin's quite thick, takes more than a try or two for me to register all these..... >.<"

    Something good did happened yesterday, at least.
    One of my colleague's daughter is so damn beautiful!!!! =)

    Some of the things that I learnt...
    Elephants, Hurricane, Wolves, Foxes, Elephant seals, Walrus, Sharks, Dolphins, LKY, Goh Chok Tong, LSL, Ring of Fire, Volcano, Space weapon...

    Learning to be happy with all the small things in life...

    Cosmo memories forever......................................

  • I miss those times

    I miss those times when I was still staying in West Coast Street 52, Blk 729, #12-XX...
    I miss those times when I started having conscious...
    I miss those times when I got my first story book (About outer space) and jump in joy...
    I miss those times when I got my first comic (about a boy robot)...
    I miss those times when I went to the market with my mum and sis back in west coast market...
    I miss those times when I began my K1, K2 right below my block.
    I miss those times when I played merry-go-round under my block, and genuinely had fun and laughter...
    I miss those times when I started my Primary 1 with anticipation...
    I miss those times when I attended the book fair in school...
    I miss those times when I could still buy a plate of fried rice in school's canteen for 50c, option to upsize for 80c...
    I miss those times when I bought a packet of fries for 10c during recess...
    I miss those times when I first started liking Porcia in Primary 1...
    I miss those times when I got transfered to the afternoon session, and got to know Xue Yan who used to live in Pandan Garden...
    I miss those times when I celebrated my 13th birthday together with the moving in to the present home...
    I miss those times when I just got transfered to South View Primary, with Aiyun as my best friend...
    I miss those times when I got 3rd in class for the year end exams...
    I miss those times when I got canned by Mrs Teo for following Xue Yan (From South View) around after school...
    I miss those times when I got dejected over my PSLE score of 221...
    I miss those times when I got into Choa Chu Kang Secondary...
    I miss those times when I realised Porcia is in the same class as me in Sec 1...
    I miss those times in Sec 1 where our class triumph over other classes in terms of academic, sports & PR...
    I miss those times where we played waterbomb after school, on birthdays, or just for fun...
    I miss those times where Teck, Guo, Yong Meng and me would ton to study overnight...
    I miss those times where I got posted into triple pure together with half the class of 2/7...
    I miss those times when Ter first joined us and argue with Mr Chua, so the whole class can skip lessons and watch drama...
    I miss those times where we made the Physics Teacher-in-Training cry...
    I miss those times where I broke Michelle's spectacles, and she was mad at me for the rest of our secondary school life...
    I miss those times where Yiping used to throw, instead of passing my exercise book to me...
    I miss those times where we went over to Kachang's place to play game...
    I miss those times when Junhao, Yehao and me used to walk/run to school in the morning...
    I miss those times when I waited for Yiping to pass by my block before rushing down to coincidentally meet her on my way to school...
    I miss those times where Junhao and me walk behind the rest during running...
    I miss those times where I realized that Porica is in PJC as well...
    I miss those times when Ruiwen and I were the best of friends...
    I miss those times where we had fun stripping Xiao En, Kris, James...
    I miss those times where the losers would sit right at the back of the class and slack...
    I miss those times where I joined Astronomy club in PJC, but ended up in Science club cause there wasn't any Astro club...
    I miss those times where we skipped lessons and hang around in JE...
    I miss those times where Ruiwen, Alina and me joined bowling club and met those snobs...
    I miss those times where we graduated and went into NS...
    I miss those times where I met Xing, Ming and the rest of the BTC...
    I miss those times during exercise where we suffer together...
    I miss those times where we geng togther...
    I miss those times where confided in Zhiwei...
    I miss those times when we were in Taiwan and experience Hurrican/Landslide/Navex...
    I miss those times when we ate chicken cutlet and bowl noodles in Taiwan's canteen in Kaoxiong...
    I miss those times when I plan the medic duty for Cat and ended up doing almost nothing...
    I miss those times when I took Cat's phone and message every single female names "I love you..."
    I miss those times when we finally ORD and I had my first experience working in a factory's night shift...
    I miss those times when I first entered university and stayed in campus joining the hall camp...
    I miss those times when I first kneel down in front of a girl...
    I miss those times when Candice grabbed my hand during the ghost walk...
    I miss those times where I camp in the study room with Kris & Chin Soon to muster my courage to hide flowers outside Candice's door...
    I miss those times when I had my 1st Valentine with Huiling...
    I miss those times when I walk back to Hall 2, Block 11, #2-XX after a night studying session at North Spine with Kuanzhong...
    I miss those times when I would camp in Library 2, top floor corner and sleep, taking care not to snore too loudly...
    I miss those times where I tried to hold Yiping's hand, but got shook off...
    I miss those times during year 2, 3 where time just breeze by in Library 2 with Kris, Jh...
    I miss those times during year 4 with Survivors...
    I miss those times during the final rush with Praneeth at Hall 3 (Including the "We can see Praneeth cuz he smiled!")...
    I miss those times where I walk Liping back home...
    I miss those times where I send Ys home and got ignored for 2 whole weeks...
    I miss those times where we graduated together as Survivors...
    I miss those times together with Knights at bbq, steamboat, sentosa, settlers...
    I miss those times where I slacked at home while trying to find a job...
    Good or bad, happy or sad, laughing or crying....
    I miss those times.........

    Cosmo memories forever................................................

Monday, 01 December 2008

  • Celebrated Jy's birthday last Wednesday. Its meant to be a surprised for her. Started planning early in the morning. Its been a long time since I last planned a surprise for anyone. Quite fun!

    Since she likes Bakerzin's cakes and she finds Penfold's red wine quite nice, and since its a norm to give ladies flowers. Got all those after a bit of scrambling about...

    Went to Paragon to get the cake, since its the nearest place with Bakerzin shops around... Should have gone there straight after work, at least Cat can come fetch me to her house. Went on to get a bouquet of flowers for her. Seriously, I know nuts about flowers, so I choose according to what I think is nice. It turned out to be quite decent, and smells very nice!! Haa!


    Our props for the night.


    Group picture of Tl, Germs, Cat, Jy, Me celebrating Jy's birthday. =)

    Went Sentosa on Sat to celebrate Jd's birthday. Another surprise, but not planned by me. Haa! I'm just a baggage. My 1st time swimming in the sea. My 1st time playing beach volleyball as well. Both are very fun and exciting! The sand is burning hot, and after a couple of hours on it, my sole feels like its on fire. Abrasion mixed with the heat, thats where you get a taste of how Thaipusam (Is this how you spell it?) feels like...
     
    Cosmo memories forever................................................

Monday, 24 November 2008

  • Just finished reading the book "Young Samurai, The Way Of The Warrior". Quite a nice book, though a bit too short. Guess there's gonna be a sequel to this, as the story's still quite incomplete...

    It basically tells of the Bushido, the way of the warrior. The 7 values of the Bushido is Rectitude, Courage, Benevolence, Respect, Honesty, Honour, Loyalty. I especially like the Bushido. Their way of life is what I would thought of as a life that I would enjoy. Waking up early to train both mind and body. Not concerned about worldy matters. Living by strict codes and disciplines. Becoming one with nature, living in a small village with a kind, pretty girl with a strong fighting spirit.... Oh well...

    It also tells of zazen, Japanese form of mediation. There are 9 'Views' to the state of enlightenment. First 'View' is to adopt the correct posture. Sitting in a lotus position with eyes half closed. Second 'View' is to breathe from the hara, the position just above the naval. Third 'View' is soothe the spirit, to devoid the mind of all thoughts. Easier said than done.... Fourth 'View' is fulfillment. To allow the ki to flow inside your body. Fifth 'View' is natural wisdom. As one attains the first 4 'Views', wisdom will come naturally, one would be able to see the world for what it is.

    There are some cool phrases inside like, "Blinded by ignorance, deafened by inexperience, voiceless with incompetence!" LoL, just like what I am now... Another one that goes, "Learn today, so you may live tomorrow!" The best teaching is from a Daruma Doll, "Seven times down, eight times up!" Haa!! That is a fantastic way of teaching people not to give up, just like the Daruma Doll. No matter how many times it falls down, it will straighten up. If it falls down ten times, it will get up eleven times. If it falls down a hundred times, it will get up a hundred and one time. Nice.

    Just found out that there is a sequel to the book, titled "Young Samurai, The Way Of The Sword". I guess the main highlight will be the process of him masering kendo. LoL. Samurai rules~~~ Shall go re-read my Belgaraid.....

    Recently, like keep being ignored by other people, or taken for granted by others. Totally don't like the feeling..... I will definitely suceed in life, just don't regret it when I'm at the top looking down at you all. And I gurantee that you won't feel good about it.

    Cosmo memories forever......................................................

Sunday, 23 November 2008

  • Haven been meeting up with Ys and co. these past few weeks. Very glad that Ys got a job also, at last, all of us can go through this transition period together.

    I feel its quite important as we go through this stage together, we understand how each of us feels. I don't mean the micro level, but at least the macro level, where every weekends is so precious, where you have to drag yourself to work every weekday. Its quite nice to just sit down and bitch about life together. =)

    Went to Mind's Cafe yesterday. The food there is surprising nice. It's my 1st time there. I would have thought the concept would be something similar to Settler's Cafe. Where they do those frozen-deep-fried stuffs themself. The pasta which I had was quite decent, about the standard of normal restaruants. We talked more than we played actually, since the package provides only 2 hours for meals + play time.

    After dinner, we went on to sit down by the riverside of the Singapore River. There were nice lightings on the sides of the river. It's a nice feeling to just sit down there, enjoy the light breeze in the company of friends. The only lacking part was we forgot to take pictures. =(

    Met up with Guo, Teck and Ter. Its been ages since we last met. Approximately 7 weeks. How can I remember so accurately? Cuz I have been working for 7 weeks already. Ever since I started working, we had not have a get-together. Those times where we just meet up for dinner during weekdays at BT is long gone. Guess we won't normally get that kind of feeling anymore.

    Events lined up for the next few weeks:

    29/11 - Sentosa with Knights
    5/12   - Ys's birthday celebration

    There is still Jy's birthday, Sis's birthday, Ter birthday.... All falls so close with each other. LoL. Have to slot them in somewhere..

    Should start up a exercise regime soon. Like really soon... Gotta work hard for my life!

    Have not been looking at the stars for quite a while... Maybe I ought to take some trip off to some quiet place to look at the night skies.... Hmmmm

    Cosmo memories forever....................................................

Monday, 03 November 2008

  • Happy!~~

    Even though my Friday sucked to the max (stayed home....), my Sat and Sun more than made up for it!!

    Sat 1/11

    Went out with Jiawen for dinner. (Kenny its a dinner not a date!!!)
    Initially she wanted to watch "Coffin", fortunately unfortunately, the tickets was sold out!
    She's a thai horror show freak! =(

    So we went to this Kim Gary place, a bit like those hong kong cafe type. The price is reasonable, and the food is not bad. Main point is, we chatted for quite a while there. She was telling me some of the stuffs that happened to her during the past 7 years...after a bit of prompting. Haa!

    After hearing some of her exploits, I dun even dare to send her home. I just made a very mild offer, and she rejected it outright. LoL

    Felt very happy after the whole 'dinner'. Thought back of the times in JC, when she see me machiam like see ghost. Set me believing that nothing is impossible in this world. From the very unhealthy rls we had during JC to the present, thats a major switch. Was actually quite surprised when she said she'll check her schedule after I asked her out. For the 1st time in 7 yrs, I went out with her!!! How cool is that??!??!! Haahaa!!

    Bought the book 'The Alchemist". Very extremely inspiring book that talks about life. Have not finished reading, but the starting few pages has already intrigued me enough to make me wanna read it.

    Sun, 2/11

    Was feeling quite sianz about going out on Sunday, the its-sunday-equals-no-go-out-day feeling is back. =(
    Anyway, Germs told me Jy got go wor... -____-"

    Got my lazy ass out during the afternoon. The travel fiesta was nothing great. Went in, walk around for 15min, came out. Got a feeling that we got conned by the marketing....

    Went walking around aimlessly for a while before queuing up for Kushimbo. Glad we queued up, cause the crabs are damn nice!!!! Haaa! Ate the 'snow crabs', got addicted to it, ate 2 more plates after the 1st. Hahaa! I think I killed a lot of crabs (indirectly of course...). The sashimi was not that great, the teppanyaki was quite good, tempura was so-so. The only hit was the crabs. Haa!

    Anyway, was so full that I still feel a bit sick now.... LoL

    Wonder whats in for next week.... Have not planned anything yet.... Sighz.... Seriously, my Friday need to stop being this sucky!!! Arghz.....

    Cosmo memories forever............................................................